There was once peace and happiness grew in my family. Everyone loved to be together especially during Chinese New Year. Every cousins from everywhere would travel back to Segamat (a town in Johor) and celebrate. I am the eldest among all but yet I was still young that time. I couldn't remember the details but I knew that we had lots of fun during those time and oh boy trust me, how naughty we were. Not long, everything started to change. One by one leave the family and never come back. It was a disaster for me and the worst part is I couldn't do anything to help. Everyone chose money and revenge over peace and unity.
There was one time...I remembered...I had one special best friend. I could say that I'm black and she is white like angel. But she wouldn't mind being with me. We were wild those days. Riding our bike everywhere, explored every small corner and laughed at every tiny jokes. Unfortunately one day, because of me, she died of car accident. That bloody accident still shook me off. Until now, I couldn't forgive myself for killing a unique girl; Until now, I couldn't find anyone that could replace her...Everyone in this world are too busy with their own business.
I went to Melbourne last year (2007)...to escape my horrible family. And now I'm back for a holiday, to visit my friends and family. I thought they would welcomed me...but instead they turned their back against me. I should never come back at all. I could feel that I'm not welcomed and unhappiness were everywhere, making me sick of it!!! It's like sucking up my energy and I'm tired all the time. A thought suddenly came to my mind, where are those happy moments in my family? Where are they?! Why is the family so broken that I can never pick up those pieces? Why can't we be like any other families?! Everytime I went to some friends' house, their family are so happy. I wanted to cry on the spot but I wouldn't. And now my mum and dad are going to divorce...What should I do? I don't like this pain at all...but I have to endure it alone...nobody will understand...no...
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After reading...your entry....
The only thing that come to my mind....I reli reli feel sorry to you~~~~~
Yang Leng ar~~~~你要過得幸福呀~~~
God Bless You~~~
Hey, don feel so sad ya! Hm...about ur friend getting killed in an accident, don't blame yourself too much! What has pass has pass, just look into the future! By the way who says no one wants to meet u? I want ya know! About ur parents getting divorce, i will pray for you and ur family that God will do something great! So take care! trust in God! Don't give up in life!
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